Mood Swings !

Its almost been a couple of months and I havent blogged ... Doesnt mean I didnt think of it ... I thought of it - at least a hundred times ... but didnt actually blog ! Not sure why ... There was some drama in between (which some of you are aware of) which kept me and my blogs away from the world for a short period of time but then even after that I never got back to blogging ... Frankly I dont know why ... And believe me it feels so weird to blog about why you are not blogging these days !!

I havent yet figured out the reason ... maybe I am waiting for something ... something like that ... Its that push from within thats missing ... maybe I am too engrossed in other things ... but if you really like something and want to do it, you always can find time for it ... so I guess, its not a good reason ... In fact, no reason is a good reason ... I myself dont know ...

Its not just blogging - its with many other things as well ... there are thousands of people I am supposed to return calls of , there are bills I am supposed to take care of and there are monthly expenses to be written down and so on .... but nothing of that has got a spot in my daily routine .. Its weird .. I just keep postponing it and postposning it ... forever ! I watch movies, play cricket, tennis and do other things but overall life has become monotonous and dull ... I think I need a break ... I need to get away and go to India .. but when I tell this to anyone, they are like, didnt you just go to India in Jan ? but my question is - cant one need couple of breaks in a year ? But then again I dont know if thats the real reason ... Anyway this blog is a serious attempt to get the wheel moving and start blogging again ... lets see how far I go with it this time ...

But hey, I do manage to sing and record songs these days ... and I am updating the blog playlist on top ... so till the time I get back to blogging full time, please have a listen and dont forget to leave a comment on any of the posts ...

Google search results changing with page #?

What do you make of the following google search results changing with page number ? Note the result page and the total number of pages shown below ... Why does it change with every page ? and that too so drastically ? going up and down !!

If you know the answer, please let me know ! Of course, there is some dynamic decision making going on in there - but whats it ? and are we sure that the 5th page (link to thre 5th page) mentioned on page 1 is the same page as the 5th page link mentioned on page 4 ?

btw, If I click on page 10 link on page 1 - I get the 5th page only !! so I think this is a bug ... Known or unknown thats the issue :) ...

Update : I dont see this behaviour on the www.live.com (Microsoft's online search engine). It shows you the exact same pages all the time !

Belated Happy Birthday ... :)

"It was your birthday on March 28th !? Are you not on my Orkut friends list !?? Happy Belated Birthday man ... "

What I have been hearing a lot from a few people last couple of days ... My question - Have we become so dependent on Orkut now ? I have deleted my orkut profile ... and wont be using it anymore ... I have somehow started *hating* orkut ! Most of my very good friends did wish me even without orkut reminder but a few of them did forget it ... mostly blaming orkut for the same ... once you have the facility, you tend to overuse it and delegate everything to it ...

Black Friday !

Never really blogged before, guess i was waiting for something that made me feel too good or too bad so that I actually put it in words.

Thought the title is perfect.. Not seen the movie yet so can't comment on how suitable it is for the movie, but yes it is apt for the past few fridays I have had and specially today...Well, its Friday evening and this week again I am stuck in office till late...

How come ?? I ask myself... why is it happening to me this week again... for the past how many weeks I have decided to treat myself by leaving early on Friday and start my weekend early.. But come friday afternoon and its like the stars conspire against me and everybody around is together with them in this... Every important training session gets scheduled on a friday, an urgent meeting or a last minute conference call with the overseas client always comes up on a friday evevning.. some crisis issue has to come on a friday evening... my computer decides to act funny on a friday evening... guess its the computers way of telling "enough, go home its the end of the week, give me a break" ...

Today I guess was by far one of the really bad ones... and so I got a topic to write my first blog on...To start with, I so didnt want to come to office today, thanks to my roommate who was going to stay home to take a break and treat herself to an extra holiday... Though I could not get that lucky, I promised her and to myself that I'll "leave early today"...

The day actually started in a really nice way ... work was getting done really fast and i was busy day-dreaming of leaving office at 3:30 in the afternoon... go home, watch TV or just sit and chat with my roommate or go out.. I had so many things to do I thought...Well, all this was just too good to be true and looks like someone managed to spy my thoughts as post lunch was such a havoc..

Now instead of one there were two "important" meeting scheduled.. one new joinee found time only today to get his doubts cleared... believe it or not my PC decided to restart on its own, i suddenly had 3-4 emails to be replied to ... and ofcourse as its a friday, it was obviously urgent. each one just manages to say please could u take care of this little thing before you leave early today :( :( were they joking ??

Well, here i am sulking in office at my desk, looking at people leave, saying goodbye and asking hey, how come u still here, u were supposed to leave early right ?? and I dont even want to answer that !!!! meri jakhmon pe namak chhidak rahe hain !

I am leaving my desk now but only to go upto the coffee machine to refill my mug :( and hoping I finish this "urgent" work and manage to reach home in time for dinner...